Actually, I don’t know how to say.
I feel everything meaningless, unable to experience any happiness.
I want to live other people’s life, I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know what to do.
I have nothing to do.
I played games, just feel it’s boring and a waste of time.
I watched anime, just feel it is all fake and make me feel more lonely.
I watched others’ life, just feel it is too good/bad to be true and wish to live someone else’s life.
I can study, I always keep studying, but those knowledges, are also, not that useful.
I can work, I am forced to work, but work don’t mean anything and it wouldn’t change anything.
I have no friends, hanging out with friends is just another form of wasting time. Just like watching anime or playing games.
I have been trying to make money, but no results, perhaps, I should try harder. But even if I have all the money. I still don’t know. Maybe fuck some girls. Then what ?
Anyway, just, like let life be life. It will run itself.