Nonce

Actually, I don’t know how to say.

I feel everything meaningless, unable to experience any happiness.

I want to live other people’s life, I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what to do.

I have nothing to do.

I played games, just feel it’s boring and a waste of time.

I watched anime, just feel it is all fake and make me feel more lonely.

I watched others’ life, just feel it is too good/bad to be true and wish to live someone else’s life.

I can study, I always keep studying, but those knowledges, are also, not that useful.

I can work, I am forced to work, but work don’t mean anything and it wouldn’t change anything.

I have no friends, hanging out with friends is just another form of wasting time. Just like watching anime or playing games.

I have been trying to make money, but no results, perhaps, I should try harder. But even if I have all the money. I still don’t know. Maybe fuck some girls. Then what ?

Anyway, just, like let life be life. It will run itself.